31st May,2006  
If yesterday was bad, today was worse…..I still haven’t won my friendship back and today a bit of the guilt I was fighting against yesterday has entered and settled itself inside me….i don’t think its planning to leave very soon…by evening, my results were out and I was not mentally prepared to handle my parents….they weren’t angry, no, I cud have handled that….they were hurt….it was killing me to see them like that…..i had no explanation to give….it was all my fault…..
........Like I had mentioned yesterday, the past week has been a roller coaster ride…..started off having a great time with my close buddies…somewhere in between a relationship that ended before I could realize it and that nearly ruined a much more important relationship with a  dear friend….left me feeling confused and upset….i thot I cudnt feel worse till today when I found out I could!….i don’t think I can sleep a wink knowing how I’ve let down the people I care for….i’m scared I’ll lose the one assured source of support and comfort in my life….who will I turn to then?….but thinking about it isn’t going to help…..sooner or later, I know things are bound to get better…..i just need to be patient and have faith….He will bring me out of this, wont He?